mind is willing but body is weak

Discussion in 'Help From Above' started by STAGE III, Mar 5, 2016.


    STAGE III Lost Experimental Block

    Sorry guys,

    I know there are folks on here with a WHOLE lot worse trials they are going through but I sure would appreciate your prayers for Gods will and my ability to have faith in his will and direct my limited energies to what he would have rather than my own will.

    I cried when my Dad died,when my wife had Stage 3 cancer(also in lymph nodes) at a time when our children were younger and when my dog of 15 years (Leo) died. Now sitting here inside again in this recliner I have about worn out since disabled really feeling like turning the flood gates loose for awhile.

    I have forced cars to happen over the years but this one went from nothing to sitting in my driveway so fast I was convinced God knew my hearts desires and while it wasn't really advancing His kingdom that he was giving me back a little joy in my life.

    I got as good a night sleep as good as I can get with all the night pains,put on my indestructable tactical clothes, have all my boxes of parts nearby to install, and I have sat there the last two hours of this beautiful day with waves of nausea and weakness and when I force myself up my wrecked back and all my torn cartilage kicks in. I have always been the calvary and really enjoyed kicking it in to help others or plow through much much more difficult projects than this but instead here I sit in a wrecked body. I can't do most of my ministry work anymore,had to quit the choir, can get virtually nothing done on this big property and old house and now my dream car sitting right in front of me and all I can do is order parts from my disability check. It is pretty sad and very defeating. I never wanted or expected to live this long but figured God had plans for me. Please pray he will give me the wisdom,knowledge and discernment to see and follow his will regardless if it involves my "toys" because this is just crushing me.

    Sorry for the whining , just figured some of ya'll might have been or are in similar situations and even if not you could pray for a brother in Christ.

    Thank you and God bless all of you.
  2. Dadrider

    Dadrider Silver Level contributor

    I understand a little bit what your going thru and the despair your experiencing. Prayers sent for you. Stay connected to us the best you can.
  3. carmantx

    carmantx Never Surrender

    Hey John. Like you say, we all have our struggles.

    Break your task down to small segments, and celebrate every accomplishment!!!

    And Never give up, Never surrender!!

    Prayers for the strength.
  4. schlepcar

    schlepcar Gold Level Contributor

    We are all brothers in the eyes of God and everyone has had their good and bad days. Sometimes we do not move as fast as our minds would like and that alone may trigger some desperation. Try to focus on getting a little done at a time or you drive yourself batty. If I got as much done now as I did thirty years ago....that story would never end. "I ain't as good as I once was...But as good once as I ever was " seems to be a good attitude. Nicer weather is right around the bend and that usually helps to motivate also.

    STAGE III Lost Experimental Block

    Thanks for the prayers guys. I hate taking the heavy pain killers they gave me because if I feel good I will usually wreck myself for days afterwards because I was numbed to the pain. Went inside and posted here,took one of my pills,prayed for a bit then went outside and PACED myself very carefully and got a lot done today. Confirmed the motor was still free, finally got the rear seat bottom out,see sawed the bench seat out and cleaned all the garbage out to the nice floorpans and organized my parts for the next good day.Thank you Lord!:)

    Thank you for the prayers and suggestions, please pray for our 15 year old daughter who broke the tibia in her foot today roller skating, she is a very talented dancer and in many groups and duets coming up and now won't be able to perform. Could always be worse but when you are 15 and thats your passion it's difficult.

    Ya'll have a blessed rest of the week-end


  6. Smokey15

    Smokey15 So old that I use AARP bolts.

    I understand what you are saying, John. Your mind says "Go!" but the body says "No". Sounds like you've been the Knight slaying the dragons and rescuing the helpless. You have the battle scars to show. Often it's the scars no one sees that give the most pain. Your suit of armor has been dented and the joints are getting worn. You see so much more wrongs to be righted, tasks to complete but it is getting so much harder to don the armor and mount your steed. You have not expected, and all too often haven't received, a thing in return for your selflessness. Now Sir, it is time for you, great Knight, to ask for the help. Pride should not factor in. You've more than done your share. Those who stand to help in any big or small way, if able, will be your true friends. Surround yourself with them.
    God Bless.
    Last edited: Mar 6, 2016

    STAGE III Lost Experimental Block

    Wellllll, I am ready to go try and snatch Excaliber out of the boulder after that speech!!! Thank you for all the kind words but anything good that comes or came out of me was all God. God has blessed me with some very nice people here of late and I am very thankful. Even when I feel my worst God is still good and has never left or foresaken me or our family. I am a very blessed man
  8. schlepcar

    schlepcar Gold Level Contributor

    Not sure if this helps,but there are only three cars in this world that should be yellow(in my truly biased and narcissistic world)....lol.......a boss mustang,any 70 cuda,and last but definitely not least the GSX. That is a cool project that looks to be in very good condition.
  9. Joe65SkylarkGS

    Joe65SkylarkGS 462 ina 65 Lark / GN

    John I totally get where your coming from. I'll say many many prayers for you to forge ahead .Even when it seems impossible.

    I hope your daughter recovers fast. And back to being 100% .

    I too do not have the physical ability to do what I used to. But I too will somehow figure out how to get my project back together .Hopefully with bell from my best friend Eric .He is an amazing person and with his strength I'm hoping we together can get it done. All I can say is it's a good thing I bought a lot of the parts years ago when I was OK and working .

    So I'm with ya and am pulling big time for you

    I'll keep an eye on your thread and hoping to see good progress .

    God bless and remember you always have your Buick Brothers.
  10. greatscat

    greatscat Well-Known Member

    John, continue to have faith my friend,
    Isaiah 41:10 "Do not fear for I am with you, do not be dismayed for I am your God,
    I will strengthen you and help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand"

    Last edited: Apr 24, 2016
  11. DeeVeeEight

    DeeVeeEight Well-Known Member

    If only North Carolina was closer to New Jersey.... We would be weekend and evening warriors. Look at your pictures my friend! You have made a load of progress!

    I understand your frustration. I had plans to swap out my starter. I bought a new one, jacked the car up and put it on stands and slid under the car with some wrenches in hand.
    1. I can't see things up close any more even with my glasses on and
    2. My arms are so worn out that I can't turn the wrenches while laying on my back in a cramped space.
    I am going to have to either employ a younger and stronger person while I supervise or take it to the trusty repair shoppe.

    STAGE III Lost Experimental Block

    Thanks for the kind and helpful words guys. Just gonna keep plugging along and be thankful for everyday:TU:
  13. Smokey15

    Smokey15 So old that I use AARP bolts.

    I only wish we could instantly "teleport" . We could all hang out and get a lot accomplished.
  14. real82it

    real82it Silver Level contributor

    Ditto. May God Bless.
  15. bhambulldog

    bhambulldog 1955 76-RoadmasterRiviera

    My prayers for you.
    Keep up the good work
  16. 70 gsconvt

    70 gsconvt Silver Level contributor

    Prayers out to you. Good luck with your project and your day.
  17. Ken Mild

    Ken Mild King of 18 Year Resto's

    Prayers for you buddy. You are an inspiration to me and others. We are all in this together.

    STAGE III Lost Experimental Block

    Well my disabilty money is about gone but have most of my 1970 specific parts . Still have lots to install and trying to pace myself but over done it several times and recovery takes days but at least I can do some stuff right? Better than dying in a recliner so definitely is a blessing. Thank you Lord : )

    Hopefully I can bring the long dormant drivetrain to life but if not I will figure something out. Thank you for the prayers and God bless ya'll too
    Last edited: Mar 21, 2016

    STAGE III Lost Experimental Block

    I know there are so many with worse problems that make mine look trivial but I guess it is all revelant when it is personal.

    I wake up some nights well knowing that someone somewhere needs prayers probably just like a stranger might have said for me when I had a death wish or was in the midst of other trials of one or another over the years. I just do a general prayer as God knows who needs prayers way before we do so I pray for protection,wisdom,knowledge,discretion and intervention for those suffering. Do i pray it all the time? No. I am hopelessly self centered just like probably all of Gods children but I can try to get out of myself when the Holy Spirit prompts me and hopefully God knows I am trying.

    My rambling aside and of course going back to myself as mentioned I would appreciate your prayers if you happen to think of the guy on the Buick forum.

    Praise God I had a brief vacation from the crushing "can't breath" depressions but they recently returned. Haven't worked on the "GSX" in weeks opting instead to attempt to restore Gods temple (my body). Other than some smart ass(sorry but they were) comments from old codgers at the Y I still have pressed on and been making progress up till this past week.

    I am passing on the surgeries i need to other areas and going to try and focus on other concerns that are probably much more important according to how I am feeling. I would just ask for a general prayer for direction to the right Doctor and also to provide the Doctor and nurses the knowledge to get me whatever help I need please.

    Thank you for your prayers and God bless you and yours.
  20. Dadrider

    Dadrider Silver Level contributor

    John, we will keep praying for you. and for the right doctor with correct diagnosis and what is needed to proceed with.

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