Sorry guys, I know there are folks on here with a WHOLE lot worse trials they are going through but I sure would appreciate your prayers for Gods will and my ability to have faith in his will and direct my limited energies to what he would have rather than my own will. I cried when my Dad died,when my wife had Stage 3 cancer(also in lymph nodes) at a time when our children were younger and when my dog of 15 years (Leo) died. Now sitting here inside again in this recliner I have about worn out since disabled really feeling like turning the flood gates loose for awhile. I have forced cars to happen over the years but this one went from nothing to sitting in my driveway so fast I was convinced God knew my hearts desires and while it wasn't really advancing His kingdom that he was giving me back a little joy in my life. I got as good a night sleep as good as I can get with all the night pains,put on my indestructable tactical clothes, have all my boxes of parts nearby to install, and I have sat there the last two hours of this beautiful day with waves of nausea and weakness and when I force myself up my wrecked back and all my torn cartilage kicks in. I have always been the calvary and really enjoyed kicking it in to help others or plow through much much more difficult projects than this but instead here I sit in a wrecked body. I can't do most of my ministry work anymore,had to quit the choir, can get virtually nothing done on this big property and old house and now my dream car sitting right in front of me and all I can do is order parts from my disability check. It is pretty sad and very defeating. I never wanted or expected to live this long but figured God had plans for me. Please pray he will give me the wisdom,knowledge and discernment to see and follow his will regardless if it involves my "toys" because this is just crushing me. Sorry for the whining , just figured some of ya'll might have been or are in similar situations and even if not you could pray for a brother in Christ. Thank you and God bless all of you.