I'll keep this short. My brother Curt died on Friday; of what we're not sure. The Medical Examiner said there were alot of wine bottles and he had meds that taken together could be lethal. Tox reports will take weeks. I'm in charge of getting thngs squared away, but when I walked into his apartment where he was found, nothing but utter filth. My family and I spent the last 5 hours "cleaning" and trying to save what we could. Literally, 200 wine bottles empty and over 50 trash bags. At least 100 Dominoes Pizza boxes. He had some serious demons that I never realized; to be fair he kept it cool on the outside world, but on the inside he was a lost soul. I hadn't been in his apartment in years but my one brotehr went in a month ago and said he remembered it being filthy. Guys, that doesn't even do it justice. It was attrocious and right now I'm having troubled dealing with the death and with my brother who knew this was going on and did nothing. All I ask is pray for Curt; he believed in God but I'm not sure he knew him. Give me the strength not to blame my brother who in my opinion was an accomplice in Curt's downward spiral. Curt Christian Wagner Born Feb 11th, 1972 Died May 22, 2009
I am sorry to read about your loss, I lost my younger brother(and best freind) 5 years ago too. Check your e-mail...my prayers go out for your brother and your family.
mark i am so sorry. your brother was way too young, but he is in a better place now. nobody knows another person, brother or not. we all have demons. do not take it out on your other brother. family is too important. forgive him and try to help your other brother if he needs it. remember once a love one is gone its for good, till your death. live life to its fullest and enjoy your family and friends people. life is too short. i am still not right since my wife's death. mark keep your family close and forgive. God Bless you mark. jim
mark, i'm truly sorry to hear this. i will pray for you and your family to have the strength to get through this. take care and be strong.
Mark, I am very sorry to hear this. I hope that this may bring y'all closer together through communication.
Mark Iam sorry for you and your family and my prayers are with you, I lost someone very close once to demons that I never knew they were dealing with too and even if you would have known sometimes there is nothing you could have done . Its been 7 years in my case and I dealt a lot with anger and guilt at first than I realized that no matter what I would have done sometimes people are so focused on self distruction that you are helpless. Take this time to form tighter bonds with your remaining family and I hope you can look past blaming your other brother as he was helpless in preventing this too. You dont want to loose a second brother to anger.Try and remember the good things in life with your brothers. My heart goes out to you.
I'm sorry to hear of your loss. It's hard to loose someone close to you like that. I spent this morning sitting in my Grandma's hospital room while she died. My daughter was named after her. Don't look for blame with your other brother, I'm sure he didn't know how bad your brother was troubled inside. It's easy for him or anyone to not believe something like that based on what he saw in the apartment. We never believe the worst could happen. It's hard enough right now and you don't need additional bad feelings at a time like this. You and your family need to find strength to deal with this through each other as well as within. He's at peace, but my thoughts will be with you and your family.
Mark, Some people can say they understand your pain, However I know first hand what you feel and how you feel. My dad and I walked into almost the exact situation almost five years ago, it was Feb. 29 2004. It was my wifes and my aneversory, I will never forget the day. they say hed been gone about 3 days and could not perform an adtopsy. To this day I still suffer some anxiety however its not as bad as it used to be. Im still somewhat bitter, However im better then I used to be. With time, help, love of friends and trusting in the lord it gets better, but you will never forget. I will keep you and the family in my thoughts and prayers Shawn Foster
I will pray for you and your family in this troubled time. May God bless Curt and keep him and may the propetual light shine upon him. Mark
Sorry to hear about your loss. I know how you feel, my brother was 45 and died from too much alcohol for too long.
Mark, Very sad to hear how your brother died. Please, resist the urge to be hard on yourself, your other brother or anyone else. And remember, it's not necessary to know or understand the demons Curt knew. Use this terrible tragedy as an opportunity to draw your family close. Seek them out, hold them close, morn your loss together. Remember Curt in love.
Hey everyone, Just wanted to say I have read all the comments and let if be known that I thank you all from the bottom of my heart. Things are getting better and easier. The service will be held this Sunday. Med Ex has waited to finalize DC until tox reports come back suggesting this was something self caused. I just hope that we can give him the kind of send off he deserved. Below are some pics of Curt, all of us kids and Curt when he was young. Again, everyone's comments are so appreciated and you guys are the best:TU:
