in the early times when i wanted ro get loaded i told my self i would wait till thr next day,that mediine called sufadenial work alot 4 me
Holiday times are tough. From being just a alcoholic, stressing on waiting for important news or losing a loved one like John has. Just try to think of it like any other day no matter what memory's they might bring up..
Sean. Know this is an older thread. How you doing brother? Pray you are alright. Along with everyone here dealing with addiction. I’ve learned a lot the past years since this post started. Not gonna lie. It still is and will be a fight every day. Please, for everyone here. This can happen to you. And it will totally ruin your life. All the good you did in the past will be gone and forgotten. I Don’t know what really to say to the person with this disease. Other than to keep going to all the programs available to you. Higher power. You need to find it. I did, and realized that he was with me all along. Just needed to ask, lean on him, he will take away, and take on your struggles for you. always ready to help. He can handle them. Still. It’s a struggle every day, if not every hour. Some positive’s: You can make a positive difference in so many others. It helps me when I help others. If you can understand, it helps the people that help me. I was told more than once when an addict was helping me with my struggles. It reminded them what they had to go through to get to there sobriety. I could go on and on, but I won’t. Just want to say thank you all for understanding. But mostly for all that knew I was in serious trouble and really? Saving my life.
Thanks Guy, as long as you are fighting that’s the main thing! This time of year is a challenge for many of us, I simply stay in locations where there aren’t people drinking and then I’m much better. Watching people get drunk isn’t too much fun anymore... best of luck and I think your faith in god will pull you through.
Merry Christmas, Guy. No, it is not "late", because your still here, living life and giving it meaning, is "right on time". I am grateful, and thankful for all who gave you any bit of grip on the slippery slope over the past (nearly) two years. They not only helped you, but they helped "who knows how many" other folk fighting the fight to hang on to life. Folks do it because they care and believe others matter. Happy New Year!, Guy. Happy New Year! Thank you for being brave enough to trust others, and speak to help save many. Always a friend. -Michael Wayne Abbott
Guy, go on and on and post as much as you want if it helps you. Like you said it can help others who are struggling.. That unprotected raw anxiety that your feeling will go away in time. Some quicker than others but it will go away and you will feel better and calmer. I'm not sure what you mean but the good you did in the past will not be forgotten.. and you can start doing good things like you are now with helping others. Glad you posted..
Keep posting. You never know who may read it, benefit from it, but not say anything. Stories like yours are the ones that reach people. Any teetotaler can harp about the evils of liquor, and any devout churchgoer can sing His praises daily, but your story, coming from one who has been to hell, it means more. Patrick
Well, I’ll post more. I lost a huge battle with two gallons of whiskey a week ago or so. Sent me to the hospital for 5 days. I’ve been back home for two days now. I’m over the almost dying part. And been posting some here on other threads. But I’m not ok. Made the decision to go back in to a 90 day rehab. Monday is when they can take me in. It’s different now. I’ve learned a lot. And this place, the Exodus House accepted me back. I’m not the first to return. In fact my sponsor was there I think three times. How they are accepting me back is, somewhat…just a little bit, helping newbie’s. But in my mind I failed. So I want to be careful not to give wrong information. There were others there my first time that had this roll. And they were a big help. They won’t let me loose. And go off on my own. Just my experience with this addiction. And that it can come back at anytime for any reason. Was 287 days sober. Day 288, thought it would be fine to take one drink. Damn, should have known. “One drink is too many, and a thousand never enough”. So, will be gone for awhile. Wish me luck.
Hang in there Guy, take as many steps as you need, Just keep steppin' in the right direction!! I applaud you for going back into rehab, It shows you are determined to come out on top and willing to learn and share with others. " Keep Swimming, you will find a Shore"
Most of my family is either addicted to drugs or alcohol. I got saved at 8 years old and never looked back. I'm now 35. I've been blessed to have no desire for any of that stuff. I've constantly prayed for my family. I've watched extremely productive people piss away their lives and it hurts me to my core. I don't know how to help them. Reading some of the success stories on this thread has given me hope. I own a seamless gutter business and watched my long time employee (my uncle) just get sentenced in November to 10 years in prison. He did time once already in the mid 2000s. He's a meth addict. There are several meth addicts in my family and friend circle. But a good deal of my family and friends are also heavy beer drinkers...with a few in laws being into heavy liquor. I'm sure the statistics are way abnormal for my circle of people. I get a little bit of normalcy with my church family. Getting involved in a good bible believing church would be great for you. I'm praying for you Guy just like I'm praying for the others. Edit: upon reading further I see that you are involved with bible studies. Stick with it and stay strong.
